Well I’ve finally done it. I’ve been toying with the idea of having a stall at a craft fair, but have held back because I didn’t know if I could manage it.
Firstly, I suffer from an anxiety disorder that makes it very difficult for me to cope in crowds of people. Secondly, I don’t always have a lot of confidence in myself and my abilities, which is why for years I have made things and given them away. It is only in the last few months that I have been persuaded by my family and friends to sell my crafts, something I still feel uncomfortable doing. Like numerous people who lack confidence in themselves, I tell myself if I give things away they’re gifts and people would be too polite tell me if they think they are rubbish. Human beings can be complex and strange creatures.
So, I am stepping onto a completely new road, without a map or clear vision as to where I am going. I have no idea where it will lead to but I am taking those first tiny steps with a sense of adventure and I must admit, trepidation as I start off in a completely new direction.
I have been telling myself for weeks, it doesn’t matter if all this comes to nothing; I am thoroughly enjoying making and creating and if nobody wants what I make, there are plenty of charities that would be able to use them. So, whatever happens there will be no losers but plenty of winners.
I am cheating a little though. I don’t feel confident enough to take part in the actual fair so I have delegated the selling role to members of my family who are quite enthusiastic about my new venture.
For this to be a positive experience, I have been thinking seriously about what the outcome of having a stall might be.
- All of my things will sell like hotcakes, but then I’d have nothing left and I will have to start building up my little stock again
- some of my things sell, so I’d have enough to do another fair in a month or so
- selling something would give me some idea of what people want to buy
- I don’t sell anything, because it’s not good and nobody wants it
It can be very difficult to switch off the negativity and see the good in what I am doing but I am trying and whatever happens at the fair, I’m sure it will be a good experience for us all.